I have no clue how to post links so please forgive my errors on this page. I tried to post things from my cell phone and as you can see the only thing that really worked was the pic of my cat LOL.  Oh well, live and learn I guess.  I'll keep trying and hopefully this blog will turn into something decent.  At least for my family who appreciate my mistakes and can laugh with my as I laugh at myself.

Mr. Cat/Rilian

Cat napping

A Mother's Musings

Mother's Day was windy, cold, and quiet. We even had snow flurries pretty much all day. Lol, is this really May?
This Mother's Day I spent a lot of time thinking about my children. All five of them are grown and all but the youngest have families of their own. I am really proud of them and what they have done with their lives.
I know I was not the greatest of moms, but I did what I thought was best for them. I hope they know that and that they are loved beyond measure.

A Note To My First Born Son.

I look at this picture of you and your first born son and I feel such pride and joy for you. My heart swells with love, here is my little boy all grown up holding his little boy just fresh from heaven. I knew then as I know now, you are and will always be a wonderful father to your children. I know that I wasn't there for you like a good mother should be, but you have done so well for yourself without me. And I'm proud of you for that. I wish sometimes that I could turn back time and make things different and be the mother I should have been for you, but you know, if I could do that. things would be different for you now, you may not have met your wonderful wife Sara or have your two beautiful children Ben and Elizabeth. As hard as life has been for all of us, I believe it was meant to be this way, so that we could get to where we are now in our lives. Especially you.
I know you suffered the most because of me and my mental illness because you were older. I am eternally sorry for the burdens that I had thrust upon you, I'm sorry for not being there when you needed me or for not letting you be a kid. I am glad that you found a loving family that gave you what I could not. But I'm here now, and I want to be here for you as much as I can for you and your beautiful family. I am so proud of you and what you have done with your life and all that you have achieved. Your wife and children are so lucky to have you and I'm so lucky to have you as my son. I love you Philip. Love, Mum